January 13

Tear The Fabric

Adderall abuse exists and is a problem.

He sits and looks down at the line on the sink, its white color contrast to the marble sink it sits upon. He looks up to the mirror on the wall, unable to recognize the stranger staring back at him. He goes down.

 

He wakes up to the alarm blaring, the ear splitting noise tearing the fabric of reality around him. He pulls the plug out of the wall and throw it across the room.as he gets up from the floor he hears every bone in his body cracking, each sending blast waves through his skin. He picks himself up off the floor and looks at the bed he was lying next to. Mumbling something inherently he walks to the bathroom and turns on the lights. The cold water from the shower peels away at the shame of the past, but the warm air only cements it more. Jeans. Tie-dye shirt. Grey hat. The mental checklist for the day complete. As the car pulls out of the driveway and down the road, the cracks in reality begin. The shades of grey and the sharp edges start to break away. The color in the world starts to come back and the eye slicing edges round themselves out. He pulls into the driveway and  walks up to the door and knocks on the window instead. The window opens. He slides two twenties into the window, and a ziplock bag of pills are exchanged. He gets back into the car and speeds home. He runs upstairs back into his room. He crushes up the pills and puts them into a line.

 

He sits and looks down at the line on the sink, its white color contrast to the marble sink it sits upon. He looks up to the mirror on the wall, unable to recognize the stranger staring back at him. Before he goes down a drop of blood falls from his nose. He looks at his hands and the streaks tye crimson droplet left he sits on the floor and leans against the wall. He closes his eyes. And they do not open.

 

October 30

Head Colds, Headaches, and “How Much Longer Until We Get To Leave?”

About a week before the most anticipated dance of high school, my nose and ears, super stuffy and with a strange pressure, cheerfully greeted my now miserable self. At the time, I dismissed it as sleeping on my back too much the previous night. I went throughout the day and tried to ignore the stuffiness and stiffness in my neck.

The next morning, with five days before prom, it had gotten worse. Continue reading

October 30

2014

A day in 2014

Do you remember? I do

They day i met you

You a nerd, reading the dictionary for fun

Me clueless, public schools we used to shun

A Brotherhood, a pact formed strong

I can’t remember what went wrong

A feeling alien to poem or song

We would talk all day long

Mischief and trouble, that’s what we would get into

Adventures and stories, the tales were told as we grew

And things got hard, in my life and yours

School wasn’t fun anymore, all of the classes were bores

I closed-out everyone, sadly, including you

Please don’t take it personally, I was hurting and i’m sure you knew

And our pacts started to rust

Like an old photo album collecting dust

And then I moved, so sudden I know

I remember those tears, begging me not to go

After everyone left, you stayed with me

It was dusk when you arrived, and dawn when you left

When it was all over, my soul had a deep cleft

But still that day we ended smiling in glee

I remember driving away from my house, looking at it fade

Just three years, but it feels like a decade

But even though, that day we were parted

I’m glad that it ended the way it started

Two strangers

In 2017