Sister, sister, sister
“Ring, Ring, Ring”, I hear the bells on the bikes of kids riding outside of my house. I open my window to glance down at them as they cruise through the streets. I am met with a cool breeze and smell of the flowers my dad had recently planted. I gulp as I make my way back to my bed. My face stays stone cold, glancing at the decaying calendar on my wall. Today marks the 5th year anniversary of my sister going missing, or dead. No one really knows.
My dad calls my name, and tells me it’s time to get up and ready for school. I plead for him to let me stay home. But before I can I have the realization that I don’t want to sulk at home, thinking of my sister. I’d rather suffer at school, distract my mind, then have to think of her all day.
I head towards my bathroom, and decide to take a cold shower, in hope to wake myself up. My breath stops and I freeze in place. I hear creaking, as if someones walking in my bathroom. I quickly open the shower door as walk splashes on the hardwood floor. No one was there. My breath quickens as I let out a relieved sigh. I think nothing of it as I finish getting ready for school.
School was just as horrible as I thought it would be. The whole day people kept coming up to me asking if I was okay and how I felt about her loss. But in reality I had no idea how to feel, after all it happened 5 years ago…
I can hear my sister’s feet crunch sticks and branches as we play in our backyard. Ceci quiets down and stays still, as a butterfly lands right on her nose. She has a look on her face, like she’s happy, genuinely happy. The type of happiness you only feel as a child, not a worry behind your face. We play continuously outside, until dawn. I can feel the hot august air on my skin as I wipe sweat from my forehead. My father calls for us to come back inside. My sister stares at me in disapproval, she says that she doesn’t want to come back inside. I grab her arm forcefully as she tries to pull away. I let go, making her fall to the ground, “Thump”. She hits the ground and cries as she heads towards the nearby forest. I stand there in awe, before I try to make a run for her. But as I get closer to the woods she seems to be gone. I run back to my house as my father asks where Ceci had gone. I tell him that she went into the woods. My father jumps up and runs out the door calling her name. But she was nowhere to be seen.
The following weeks were complete chaos. My father and the police had been looking everywhere, helicopters and police dogs helped as well. But still there was not a single trace of her. I began to wonder how one person can disappear so fast. One minute you’re there, and the next you’re not…
I decide to go on a walk to clear my head after such an exhausting day. This was the worst decision I could have made after realizing how incredibly hot it was outside. I make my way by the forest in hopes to find some shade under a tree. I use my hand to fan my face as my vision becomes blurry. I shake my head in discernment as I see a little girl deeper into the forest. I stand up to get a clearer view before realizing that, that little girl is my own sister. I shut my eyes hard and rub them. The little girl is gone, my sister is gone.
I toss and turn, with my mind on the little girl that I saw in the forest. That couldn’t have been my little sister, right? My mind starts to drift, as I slowly begin to fall asleep. But in my dream I imagine my sister, on the day that she disappeared. She says something to me but I can’t make out what she’s saying. All I know is that it’s peaceful, I’m happy. I try to reach out to her but she suddenly disappears. All that is left is that butterfly.
I race to get dressed as I make my way out the door and to the forest. I go to the exact same place I saw her, my little sister. I wait there continuously, hours go by. But as I start to give up and walk back towards my house. I hear a voice, I get closer and closer to it. But as I get closer to it, the only thing I am met with is a butterfly. It looks identical to the one that landed on Ceci. I chuckle as I form a smile. She has been with me this entire time, my little sister Ceci.