October 31

The time I went to Florida

The day I first got to Florida.

I’m happy as I got off the chilly airplane as I went outside.The hot air hit me with nice palm trees in the distance. I see the alligators relaxing on the bank of the ponds in the sun and floating in the warm water. The sight of a nice blue sky with not many clouds and birds soaring through the air. I get on the shuttle from the airport to the hotel where I see my Grandfather for the first time in 5 years. 

I’m happy as I hugged him for the first time in 5 years. We get in his new car and head back to their new house I have never seen.I’m happy I also got to see their 2 dogs for the last time in my life. 2 miniature schnauzers who were getting older. The smell of my Grandma’s meatloaf knowing it was going to be awesome. At night we all sit down and watch a funny movie or show. Nothing was ever the same since my Grandfather and Grandmother moved to Florida.

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October 30

An Old Warm House

Home. What a loving word. Which causes memories to flow through all my family’s heads,and what brings back all those memories was all the family gatherings,sports games like basketball or soccer, and all the great carne asada cookouts. 

 

One thing is that I really like carne asada . The smell is like falling from heaven, and the taste? Is even better. The taste is tender,salty,juicy, there’s nothing better. At the family gatherings we play sports, what it sounds like is a lot of talking,shouting, and sharing laughs with each other.

October 30

My first pet

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Finding my cat
I was five years old walking down the steps of my old school after my mom was out of her meeting and we saw this little black and white cat sitting pitifully on the steps. We got him some food and he perked up a bit and started to get a little warmer. He rubbed against my legs and I felt the soft fur telling me he probably was not a stray. He was just the sweetest little thing and by that time a crowd had gathered around the cat. The decision was that we would take him home.

My dad was not very happy and wanted to get rid of him as fast as possible. We had never had a pet before so it was strange to have him in the house, we put up flyers posted on social media trying our best to find his owner. No one claimed him, so eventually after some begging we kept him. He was the most entertaining thing that had happened for a long time. We have old pictures of him sitting in my lap looking so content. He was the best thing that happened to our house and I’m glad to have him.

October 30

The first day

Five-thousand-eight-hundred-forty-two. That’s how many days I have to choose from.

 The day I moved schools? The day I first touched a volleyball? The day I turned 12? My first time in the driver’s seat of a car?

 I don’t remember the days, I remember the moments. I remember the hot gym and the excitement I got from being next in line. I remember introducing all of my friends to red velvet cake and watching everyone ask for another piece. I remember the loud yells from my dad when I slammed my foot on the brakes.

 But more specifically, I remember the cold chill of the air as I shakily open the car door. I remember the repetitive harsh beats of my heart that I couldn’t keep down. I can still smell the cold fresh air which was the last thing keeping me sane. I look around to see the piercing eyes of my future classmates. 

I remember how my skin was crawling when I opened the door to my first ever class at the school. Everyone’s face was covered with cloth and I didn’t know where to look. 

The ceiling? The floor? Someone’s face? 

I didn’t even know if I could build up a sentence.

 I hear pencils tapping, shoes squeaking, whispering, but I have yet to hear a “hello!” or a “nice to meet you!”.

“Your first impression is the most important” relays in my head, adding to the building blocks of insecurities clouding my thoughts. I was lost, scared, lonely, and I almost didn’t think I could muster up the confidence to say a word. 

This was until I found someone that had the same name as me. Someone whose presence was a relief and an escape, who gave me the courage to communicate.

“Such a simple thing” I thought, but something that I was so strongly holding back.

I was then able to participate in gym class without the fear of judgment, walk in the hallways confidently, and more importantly I was able to smile underneath my mask both physically and mentally. I remember how thankful I was to experience such a blessing, and I will know to remember the beautiful outcome rather than the scary process, even One-thousand-two-hundred-eighty-nine days later.

October 30

Burst Of Flavor

   Candy, what a delicious word, it causes my mouth to water like Niagra Falls. 

     I walk aisle to aisle searching for the perfect candy for the rest of the road trip. I scan once more and spot a delicious starburst package sitting there. Calling my name. I reach down, eyes staring at its glistening  package. My body takes full control and pounces at the starburst, gripping it tightly. I can feel each one of my fingers wrap around its smooth wrapping. My face is smiling ear to ear. My cheeks started to hurt but I felt amazing. As I approach the car,  I feel my heart beating faster and faster. I quickly start to pick up my walking pace and sit in my seat straight away. I grab into my pocket and clench. This was it. I slide my hand in my pocket like a snake slithering its way to catch its prey. 

     My hand. Trembling almost. The candy glistened in my hand. The sunlight hit the package in a way that made that moment feel like a lifetime. Gripping its wrapper, I pull it down. My mom didn’t hit 10 mph before I popped one in my mouth. The crinkle of the wrapper still stays in my head today. 

     The pink starburst dances around my mouth. I slowly move my jaw up and down. Trying to get every last flavor out of this gummy candy. 

     Never shall I forget that first bite. Never shall I forget those sweet, sweet flavors which burst in my mouth like a grenade. Never shall I forget that long-lasting swallow which slid down my throat like I did as a kid down a slide. Never shall I forget that moment, even if it was 100 years from now. Never.

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October 30

A Path Of Petals

Aunt Michelle, who was marrying into my family, handed me the basket full of beautiful pale pink flowers, moments before I sprinkled them down the aisle. I wanted to live in that moment forever.

     I woke up on the morning of my aunt’s wedding. Sharing a room with my cousins, the sun beaming through the windows lighting up the room. I was the only one in there, all my cousins already left. I neatly made my bed and got dressed, putting my Flower Girl robe overtop of my outfit. The soft silk sliding perfectly on. I heard my cousin, Eli, calling my name from the movie theater room in our Airbnb. 

     I excitedly ran into the other room to see him watching our movie, The Bee Movie. We sat down and watched it all together cuddled up under a blanket. All of us, Eli, Madden, and my brother Tyler. At the time, I was the oldest at the age of 8. Our parents came into the room telling us that breakfast was almost done. 

     We hopped up and raced up the stairs, the smell of freshly made pancakes and crispy bacon flooding our noses. We sat down at our own table on the balcony and ate breakfast with a gorgeous view of the ocean. Tyler and Madden went to go take a nap and Eli and I quickly put our bathing suits on and jumped into the pool. 

     We swam around playing a bunch of different games, our family coming in and out of the pool. It got to the time of us getting ready and we reluctantly got out of the pool. We all got our bags together, suits and dresses neatly packed, as we headed to our separate bridal suites. We drove up to a beautifully decorated white building, flowers lining the windows and the railings. 

     I got out of the car and walked up to the building, looking at the once again gorgeous view of the ocean. We walked inside to the smell of fresh flowers and febreeze floating around the house. Several suede couches lining the walls with fluffy blankets draping over the backs of them. 

    My mom and aunt poured me a glass of sparkling cider as they poured champagne for everyone. The loud popping sound of the bottle, followed by cheering and the bubbling from the drink pouring over the edge. 

     I sat down on the couch, talking to my aunt’s friends about school and if I’m excited for the wedding. I felt so grown up and included around them. 

     The time passed so quickly and soon enough, it was my turn for hair and make up. I sat down in the raised, cushioned seat that they had. Lish, the hair/make-up girl, is one of our close family friends. She got started on curling my hair first as the rest of the wedding party made a toast. It took her about an hour to do my hair but it looked prettier than it ever has.

     She quickly did my make up, as there was not much to do since I was so little. I hopped off the chair excitedly and watched everyone in awe as I spun in a circle. 

     Everybody got dressed and we waited for my aunt to come out in her dress. The door knob to her changing room slowly turned and we all, without meaning to, held our breath. She walked out in her long, white, and lacy dress, looking like something from a dream. We packed everything up into the car, piled in neatly, and got ready to go. 

     Pulling up to the beach, seeing all the chairs and family seated in the perfectly arranged seats. Butterflies appeared in my stomach as I waited for my time to walk out. 

     I walked down the stairs to the beach, my feet hitting the warm sand immediately comforting me. Everyone turned to look at me as I started walking down, pulling out their cameras and whispering in admiration. I had the biggest smile on my face and nothing could take that way.  

     I will never forget the excitement I felt that day. I will never forget the way everyone watched as I sprinkled the flowers, when it was my turn to introduce the bride. I will never forget that big house which is now filled with the ghost of our laughter and memories. I will never forget being pampered which made me feel so grown up. I will never forget the theater room where we spent so many nights. I will never forget how close we all were that week no matter how long we go without seeing each other. Never.

 

October 28

Warm blanket

Just like me, a warm blanket describes me.  In my moods a warm blanket smells like the softener of a baby.  A warm blanket feels so fuzzy and soft.

 

The warm blanket reminds me of October when it smells like pumpkin chai that tells me to bring a warm blanket.

 

 A Warm blanket is my comfort. 

 

A moment when me and my cousin are watching a movie called Hubie  Halloween on my bed.

 We are Drinking our cold iced pumpkin chai from starbucks. It’s very cold in the room.

The room smells like pumpkin spice  with cold foam. 

The warm blanket changed.I feel it in the coffee.I feel it in the cold. I smell it in the fall.What would I do without my warm blanket? I would die for it keeps me warm and cozy.         

We always need a warm blanket by our sides.

October 28

My Home

The blue shutters that line the windows. The white brick chimney. The path from the driveway to the front door. This is not home, this is my house. 

 

Missing being home is one thing but when you say you miss home, it is completely different.  When I miss home I can’t get home off my mind. Home is something that knows all your secrets, and all your problems, and makes sure you’re okay. Home is no longer a place, it is a person.

 

Home is when I’m with my boyfriend.

His arms around me while we hug is home. Watching TV shows with him is home. Home is when he and I spend countless hours together doing nothing. Home is no longer a white house with a muted blue door, home is the bus rides during marching band 

season. Home is when we go on vacation with each other’s families. Home is playing video games together. Home is the forever lasting memories.

 

Since when was home a person? Since the warm tight hugs, the mix between our warm and cold hands intertwined, and his arm around me while I lean onto his chest is the only place I feel safe. 

 

The blue shutters that line the window, the white brick chimney, the path from the driveway to the front door, the muted blue front door is my house not my home. My home is my boyfriend.

October 28

Fall Movies

It’s a cold, stormy October night and my dad had just arrived home, soaking wet. In his hands he had a large crinkly grocery bag. He stood at the entrance, the bag still swaying, making a slight whooshing sound. My brother and I immediately shot up out of excitement, we knew what this meant, when dad came home late at night with snacks undoubtedly a movie night would be coming. We exchanged excited glances before yelling “MOVIE NIGHT!” simultaneously. My dad grabbed the remote off of the couch with a big smile on his face, he didn’t do this stuff often but when he did it was really special. We all sunk into the softest couch we owned, it felt just like a sheep. I reached out for the green bowl of peanut m and m’s. I smiled when the chocolatey scent finally reached my nose. But before I had time to enjoy the chocolatey goodness my brother decided he was gonna pick the movie and he snatched the remote. We weren’t complaining, though, he did pick really good movies. He put on the charlie brown halloween and finally sunk into the couch, copying me and my dad. It was drizzling outside, halloween decorations up everywhere, a pumpkin scented candle was wafting through the air. That was the most perfect I remember life being.